Multiplicity

 

Last night was amazing. I took some time to catch up with one of my best friends -- nicknamed Auntie M. We drank wine, made spring rolls and then danced the night away. I haven't felt so overwelmed with joy in a long time. Insecurities faded...

Life was good at least until I returned home. I felt the insecurities crawling up my legs and up my back. They wraped their arms around me and squeezed every drop of joy I felt out of me.

They dragged me to the mirror and as I gazed at myself teeth wine stained, hair in a disarray, eyes squinting at the light I felt an odd sense of security. I was back, feeling low and depressed.
This look shows the progress I've gone through starting with being drained of all optimism and ending where I sit within myself currently.

Perhaps I came off a little strong?

The Curtains of My Insecurity Hide Me From Your Love

I can be a very sensitive individual. My emotions are always trying to interfere with the functioning of my life. While taking the shots for this look I couldn't help but reflect on why I was taking them. Why I was allowing a bit of my soul to be ripped from me with every "ca-click" 

I feel like there is a slight price to pay for it. There is a price to pay for a beautiful image. You find yourself holding your everyday appearance up to a magnifying glass looking for imperfections -- cropping here, blemish removing here or there, adding a tint of lavender and red, distorting, creating sunlight.

 The end result is never what you hoped for, but it's the best you've got, so you accept it. In my life, my insecurities prevent me from truly living and enjoying the many things and experiences I am fortunate to have a part of it.

 Eventually it'll either get better or worse, only time will tell. But I hope this lesson on me sits well with you and takes your quality of life higher. 

I guess I never realized...

I guess I never realized how static the blog has been...a change is coming...but not in the way Obama has inspired us all :/

think ACTUAL change...


Anyway. This is my roommate. This dude is friggin hilarious. The other day he asked me why I never put him on the blog. I think he was hinting at the selfishness and static nature of the blog.
After my awkward laugh I decided to go ahead and give it a shot... I'd say they turned out pretty good!! Thoughts?

Noir

Today I decided to go all black. A lot of my friends know I love to wear all black when I go out. There is something about darkness and the solidity of wearing all black thats is alluring to me.
This look I took to work for the 2nd first day and I loved it.

 

On That Day, No Bird Will Sing